TWISTED

I LIKE BIPOLARS because they are unpredictable.
I SMILE when i am being mean.
I AM FOND OF MAKING BUBBLE THOUGHTS. i find them very exciting.
I SWEAR when i am happy.
I SWEAR MORE when i am pissed.
I LOVE chicken.
I HATE frogs.
I PREFER LISTENING than TALKING.
I HAVE WEIRD VIEWS about life.
I AM EMO at certain circumstances.
I LOATHE numbers.
I CRY when i read books.
I CRY MORE when i watch movies.
ELY BUENDIA will always be UNINTENDED.

***NORMAL MOST OF THE TIME.

CONVERSE: I LOVE

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LOVING THEM FOREVER

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Wednesday, February 24, 2010

para sa inlababo




ito lang ang tanging masasabi ko sa'yo. (faint smile)
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Tuesday, February 23, 2010

I'M NOT GOING TO THINK ABOUT HIM




BOW.
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one received call

DATE: February 23,2010
TIME: 12:16 pm
NUMBER: 09302265130
CALL DURATION: 00:05:01








-in case i'll forget.
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Monday, February 22, 2010

please stop acting that you still like me and please stop telling my friend that you still love me?? it's really insulting!
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Sunday, February 21, 2010

spookingly true! (char)

Dear Daryl George Enriquez, below are your Personality Tests result:
Who is your true self: You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.
Your view on yourself:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Other people find you very interesting
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : But you are really hiding your true self
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Your friends love you because you are a good listener
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You like serious
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Smart
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Determined people
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You don't judge a book by its cover
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : So good-looking people aren't necessarily your style
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person
The seriousness of your love:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You like to flirt
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Behave seductively
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : The opposite sex finds this very attractive
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : That's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?
Your views on education:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Education is very important in life
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You want to study hard
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Learn as much as you can
The right job for you:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You're a practical person
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Will choose a secure job with a steady income
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Knowing what you like to do is important
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Find a regular job doing just that
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You'll be set for life
How do you view success:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You are afraid of failure
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous
What are you most afraid of:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You are concerned about your image
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : The way others see you
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : It's time for you to believe in who you are
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Not what you wear
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10 Conyommandments

1. Thou shall make gamit "make+pandiwa".
ex. "Let's make pasok na to our class!"
"Wait lang! I'm making kain pa!"
"Come on na, we can't make hintay anymore! It's in Andrew pa, you know?"

2. Thou shall make kalat "noh", "diba" and "eh" in your pangungusap.
ex. "I don't like to make lakad in the baha nga, no? Eh diba it's like, so eew, diba?"
"What ba: stop nga being maarte noh?"
"Eh as if you want naman also, diba?"

3. When making describe a whatever, always say "It's SO pang-uri!"
ex. "It's so malaki, you know, and so mainit!"
"I know right? So sarap nga, eh!"
"You're making me inggit naman.. I'll make bili nga my own burger."

4. When you are lalaki, make parang punctuation "dude", 'tsong" or "pare"
ex. "Dude, ENGANAL is so hirap, pare."
"I know, tsong, I got bagsak nga in quiz one, eh"

5. Thou shall know you know? I know right!
ex. "My bag is so bigat today, you know"
"I know, right! We have to make dala pa kasi the jumbo Physics book eh!"

6. Make gawa the plural of pangngalans like in English or Spanish.
ex. "I have so many tigyawats, oh!"

7. Like, when you can make kaya, always use like. Like, I know right?
ex. "Like, it's so init naman!"
"Yah! The aircon, it's, like sira!"

8. Make yourself feel so galing by translating the last word of your sentence, you know, your pangungusap?
ex. "Kakainis naman in the LRT! How plenty tao, you know, people?"
"It's so tight nga there, eh, you know, masikip?"

9. Make gamit of plenty abbreviations, you know, daglat?"
ex. "Like, OMG! It's like traffic sa LRT"
"I know right? It's so kaka!"
"Kaka?"
"Kakaasar!"

10. Make gamit the pinakamaarte voice and pronunciation you have para full effect!
ex. "I'm, like, making aral at the Arrhneo!"
"Me naman, I'm from Lazzahl!"


OMFG. ANIME FAINT. LOLZ. I GOT IT FROM HERE OH..lol
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Friday, February 19, 2010

things that made me LOLZ.

i asked jeje to download some commercials for my thesis. i guess, she got really interested with some youtube ads, here are some of the clips that made us sit down,laugh and forget all the things we had to do.



i love the OST. uber :))




dahil ang talino mo ante...




pero mas matalino ka pa rin...



ah yeaaaah! wala ba kayong mga kamay??!


LOL.LOL.LOL.
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Tuesday, February 16, 2010

lain sa buot na dli naka akua. pero mas sakit huna-hunaon na wala jud ka na akua. regards na lang ko sa imung uyab dira. unta wala xay nahibal-an sa mga gipangbuhat nimu. ug unta dili nimu siya pasakitan. hmmm. siguro apil jud ko atong mga others noh? you just make their hearts beat faster. sorry kaayo ha! maypagka ignoramus man gud ni akong heart. dili man gud ni siya makafeel pirmi ug fast heart beat - may pagka abnormal man gud... mao na pag naa gani mag trigger sa iyaha, tuara! pirti intawon luoya...

swerteha pud niya uy, makaibog. kasi you can only love one person truly - ug siya jud siguro to....

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Tuesday, February 9, 2010

ang drums, ampli at mga gitara

"bakit pa kailangan magbihis? sayang din naman ang porma, lagi rin namang may sisingit sa tuwing tayo'y magkasama..."

matagal-tagal na rin naman silang nagpapraktis kina sagal eh. sa katunayan, mga 4 na araw na. palo dito-strum doon. kanta dito-sigaw doon, parang routinary na nga lang eh, xempre naman praktis yun! what do you expect diba? at syempre naman, sa mga panahong nagpapraktis sila, nanduon lang ako - nakamasid sa kanila at minsan sa kanya.

sa totoo lang magaling talaga siya eh, kaya kahit anong pilit kong iiwas ang atensyon ko sa kanya - ang hirap-hirap talaga! eh sino ba naman ang hindi mahihirapan eh parati ko siyang nahuhuling nakatingin sa akin o kung hindi naman, eh parati niya akong iniinis. madalas pa nga eh nagpapasikat siya - syempre naman pano ko hindi mapapansin yon eh na sa tuwing tutugtugin niya yong gitara o sa tuwing papalo sa drums eh bigla niya akong tinitingnan! isipin mo ha, nakaupo ako sa likuran niya! ang effort naman ata non! at eto pa! sa tuwing pinagsasabihan ko siya na itigil na ang pag-iingay niya sa walang kwenta namang drum beat, biruin mo? mas lalong siyang ginaganahan na ipagpatuloy yong ginagawa niya! in-off ko na nga ang ampli, inagaw ko na sa kanya ang drum sticks, aba! talagang sumasayaw at kumakanta pa ng mga korean sa harap ko.

tapos ayan pa yung sasayaw ka ng pina ELY BUENDIA na yung tugtog eh chocolate love? at eto naman ako biglang na addict sa SNSD. ano ba naman 'to! ano ba talaga gusto mo? hindi nga ako kinikilig pero parang gustong-gusto ko naman! haay naku! ewan ko ba sa'yo! pwede bang wag ka na lang masyadong mabait? nasasaktan ako eh. mas gusto ko pa yata yung time na hindi tayo friends - parang napaka peaceful ng life ko.

ngayon pano kita makakalimutan kung ganyan ka ng ganyan? eh mag babalentyns pa naman! mas lalo kitang maaalala! tapos kanina lang nalaman ko may motor ka na pala - gusto mo pa yata na maging pasahero ako araw-araw! haaaaaaaaay.

4 na araw na sunod-sunod. apat na araw na magkaibigan tayo. apat na araw na panaka-nakang text. apat na araw na pasikat. apat na araw ng tuloy-tuloy na pagmamahal sa'yo. apat na araw na bitin na bitin sa'yo. apat na araw na nasasaktan dahil sa'yo. :(



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Thursday, February 4, 2010

mga kwentong jelly beans :)

i tried checking my multiply site after a very long time of not logging-in. for the char lang dapat. so i tried to check my blogs - - - you know, those amateur and poser types (char, murag hawd). anyway, i stumbled on this famous story from tristan cafe which maan had suggested. wala lang. ayos xa, it brings back childish memories - you know, first few years in college - where everything is just smooth and gentle and innocent. it made me smile.


Hindi ako mahilig sa jelly beans. Pero nung dumating yung jelly beans galing sa sister ng roommate ko, naintriga ako. Isang malaking garapon ng jelly beans na siguro ay mga 1000 ang laman at may 49 flavors. Hinanap ko agad yung chocolate pudding na flavor na nakalagay sa listahan. Lahat ng kulay brown, kinuha ko. Pero hindi chocolate ang lasa ng mga jelly beans na kinain ko. May coffee, may plum, may licorice, may rootbeer, ngunit walang chocolate. Sa kakahanap ng chocolate flavor, hindi ko napapansin ang ibang 48 flavors na nasa garapon. At na-realize ko, ikaw ang the elusive chocolate pudding flavor na jelly bean sa buhay ko.

Na-obsessed ako sa lahat ng kulay brown na jelly beans. Iyong roommate ko, na-explore na yung ibang flavor. May bubble gum flavor, may piC1a colada, may peanut butter, may sizzling cinnamon, may caramel popcorn. Lahat yun, nasarapan sya. Ako, hindi ko pinapansin ang ibang jelly beans. Naka-tuon ang pansin ko sa brown jelly beans.

Parang ikaw. Sa kakahabol sa iyo, hindi ko na napansin ang ibang lalake sa paligid ko. Masyado akong naka-focus sa yo, kaya napapalampas ko na ang mga matitinong lalake na nagbibigay interes sa akin. Parang yung ibang flavors ng jelly beans na hindi ko natikman dahil ang gusto ko talaga eh yung chocolate pudding.

Iyong roommate ko, natikman na nya ang chocolate pudding na jelly bean. Ang swerte naman niya, natikman nya agad ang flavor na gusto ko. Hindi niya hinahangad, yun pa ang napunta sa kanya. Sabi niya, hindi naman daw masarap ung chocolate pudding na jelly bean. Ordinaryo lang ang lasa. Hindi tulad nung mga favorite nyang flavor. Pinatikim nya sa akin yung toasted marshmallow saka ung strawberry cheesecake, masarap naman pero, yung chocolate pudding talaga gusto ko eh. Ganon yata talaga yun. Mas gusto natin yung hindi natin nakukuha.

Nung finally natikman ko ang chocolate pudding na jelly bean, napasigaw ako. At last, nakuha ko rin ang gusto ko. Pero, nung ninamnam ko ang lasa, hindi nga sya masarap. Hindi sya ganun ka fabulous. Parang ordinaryong chocolate lang na pinalambot. Pero ang saya nung feeling na finally, nakuha ko rin yun. Matapos akong mapurga sa licorice at root beer flavors.

Hindi ko pa natitikman ang lahat ng 49 flavors na jelly beans sa garapon. Nangangalahati na ang laman pero chocolate pa rin ang hinahanap ko kapag binubuksan ko ang takip. Fixated pa rin ako sa mga kulay brown na beans, kahit na mas appealing ang pink, violet at blue. Madalas, ibang flavor na nakukuha ko pero kapag sinuswerte, nahahagilap ko rin ang chocolate pudding.

Oo, hindi worth the aggravation ang paghahanap sa chocolate pudding. Hindi worth ang paghahabol ko sa yo. Ordinaryo ka lang naman. Marami pang hihigit sa yo. May mga blueberry o cotton candy o strawberry daiquiri flavors na lalake sa paligid ko pero hindi ko pinapansin. Pero bakit kapag kakain ako ng jelly beans, chocolate pudding pa rin ang hinahanap ko? Bakit kahit na marami naman lalake dyan, ikaw pa rin ang gusto ko?

Hay, siguro dahil sa nakasanayan ko na.

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ISA PANG KWENTONG JELLY BEANS

Lahat tayo, may chocolate pudding flavor na jelly bean sa buhay. Iyong isang bagay na pinapangarap nating maabot ngunit sa iba't ibang kadahilanan ay sadyang mailap sa atin. Pero dahil sa ito ang inaasam natin, ginagawa natin ang lahat para makuha ito. May mga sinusuwerte, may iba naman na sumusuko na dahil sa hindi nila ito makuha. At may mga iilan na nagpupumilit pa rin, at umaasang isang araw ay makukuha din nila ito.

Kung si Carl ang the elusive chocolate pudding jelly bean sa buhay ko, si AJ naman ang blueberry flavor: masarap, matamis, pero dahil laging nandiyan, hindi ko na-appreciate.

I have known AJ for 13 years. My earliest memory of him was at the library, when he was trying to start a conversation. May pinakita siyang sports magazine kung saan nasa cover ang paborito kong si Jojo Lastimosa and that was how everything started.

Naging groupmates kami sa Music class and we'd spend Saturdays together, practicing for our group presentations. At dahil sa lagi kaming magkasama, naging close kami sa isa't isa

I remember showing him my poem collections, and there was one that he particularly liked. He was reading it aloud, and I was looking at him. He looked up, met my gaze, smiled and said, "Ayaw ug tutok sa ako, Nords, basi ma-in love ko sa imo, ligawan ta ka." I blushed, kahit na hindi ako maputi.

Our literature class was watching Roxanne in the dark Audio-Visual Room one afternoon. He was beside me. He held my hand. I didn't flinch.

It was the end of our junior years, and I was asking my classmates to sign my chemistry book. He scribbled, "Nords, I love you..." I laughed. He looked at me. I stopped laughing and got his book. "I love you, too" I wrote. He beamed.

We were always together the beginning of our senior year. We took recess, spent lunchtime with each other and talked every chance we got. After CAT, he would wait for me, carry my bag and we'd head together to the classroom where he'd ask me to give him a massage.

"Mura na mu ug mag-uyab (para kayong mag-syota)," a classmate commented once. AJ put his arm around me and said, "Actually, kami na."

But we were not an item. I was madly in love with Carl who was
apathetic to me while AJ seemed to be falling for every beautiful girl in campus. Kilala ko lahat ng crush niya. I was even his "bridge" to a couple of them. But his attempts to win them failed at isang malaking misteryo sa akin iyun. He was smart, and good-looking, and funny, and sensitive. These girls didn't know what they were missing.

In the early months of our friendship, kinukunsinti ako ni AJ sa kahibangan ko kay Carl. He'd tell me whenever Carl was outside our classroom, or he'd inform me about Carl's hereabouts. Sinasamahan pa niya ako minsan sa pang-i-stalk ko Pero si Carl ang dahilan kung bakit kami nag-away.

I remember that afternoon when I was crying because I learned that Carl had a new girlfriend. AJ asked me why I was wasting my time crying over someone unworthy when I should be spending it with someone who loved me. Tinawag niya akong tanga and I stormed out of the room and didn't talk to him for weeks.

During our retreat, our facilitator told us to ask forgiveness from people we hurt. I didn't know who made the move but I just saw myself face to face with him in the middle of the room. We looked at each other for a long time and then I started to cry. He pulled me to him and hugged me.

Hindi ko alam kung gaano katagal kaming magkayakap pero noong gabi ng retreat, habang nakasandal ako sa dibdib niya at umiiyak, I realized that I was falling in love with him.

And then he broke my heart.

We were inside the empty music room, waiting for the other group members. I was listening to him play "Everything I do, I do it for you" on the keyboard. And then he stopped playing and started talking about his seatmate who was so nice to him.

He said he was starting to like her. He asked, "Okay lang ba na manligaw ko sa iya, Nords?"

Hindi ako nakasagot agad dahil ang totoo, gusto kong maiyak. Ilang beses na nagkuwento si AJ tungkol sa mga babaeng gusto niya pero noong araw na iyon, sobrang nasaktan ako sa narinig ko. Pero hindi ako nagpahalata. Ngumiti ako at sinabing, "If
it's going to make you happy, then do it!" And for the first time, I secretly wished na sana ma-basted siya.

We drifted apart after that incident. Laging silang magkasama noong girl na may gusto din sa kanya habang bumalik ako sa paghahabol kay Carl. We didn't see each other after our high school graduation because I studied in Manila. But when I went to Davao for a brief vacation after college, he came to see me even if it was already late at night and he arrived riding his bicycles, wearing pambahay t-shirt and shorts.

Late 90s na iyun and I was working in my first job when I got an email from him, informing he would be in Manila for two weeks. He had plans of working abroad and he was completing his requirements in Manila. We went out thrice and I introduced him to my friends.

It was in November 2001 when I received a text message from him. "I'm leaving for US tomorrow," the message said. I answered, "Ay, di na kita makikita uli?" His reply was a cheesy line from Aiza Seguera's songs: Pagdating ng panahon, baka ikaw rin at ako.

He worked in US for two years but emails, messenger and text messages kept us together. We were chatting everyday, talking about anything and everything. We'd talk about our respective relationships, works and family. Sometimes, we would engage in a repartee of flirting and sexual innuendoes.

Once, I asked him why he didn't come to see me before he left the country and he kidded something might happen to us and he wouldn't be able to go to the US.

People close to us predicted that eventually, AJ and I would end up together pero hindi ko pinapansin ang sinasabi nila. Oo, AJ and I had a "moment" in high school but that was it. a moment. And high school was more than a decade ago.

Minsan, we were chatting in Yahoo messenger and I was telling him about our high school reunion. Nagkuwento ako tungkol sa pagkikita namin ni Carl at kung paano ako kinilig nung hinalikan niya ako. His reply was:" Si Carl pa rin? Nords, forget him. You don't deserve him."

You're right. I deserved you in high school. I deserve you now. Kung sana hindi ako nagpakatanga kay Carl, kung sana na-appreciate ko lahat ng ginawa mo, baka kasal na tayo ngayon. Baka may dalawa na tayong anak. Baka kasama mo na ako diyan sa US.

Pagdating kay AJ, I will be living my life with maybe and what could have been. Hindi na mangyayari ang mga "baka" na iyun. He got married early this year.

Siya iyong blueberry flavor na jelly bean. Masarap, oo. pero dumating siya ng mga panahong obsessed ako sa chocolate pudding. Kaya kahit na masarap siya, at nasiyahan ako, hindi ko pinansin. Feeling ko kasi nandiyan lang siya sa garapon. Hindi ko akalain na mauubos din pala siya. At nang ma-realize ko na
gusto ko na ng blueberry sa halip na chocolate pudding, ubos na ang blueberry. Nakuha na ng iba.

Siya ang blueberry flavor na jelly bean. Ang "the one who got away."
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Tuesday, February 2, 2010

You've carried the guilt, the shame for long enough. You've kept your wounds open for long enough. The time has come to let go, to heal. Keep the lessons and let the pain heal. Yes, you know what we are talking about it.

(GOD WANTS YOU TO KNOW ON FACEBOOK)

---pati si Lord oh...
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