TWISTED

I LIKE BIPOLARS because they are unpredictable.
I SMILE when i am being mean.
I AM FOND OF MAKING BUBBLE THOUGHTS. i find them very exciting.
I SWEAR when i am happy.
I SWEAR MORE when i am pissed.
I LOVE chicken.
I HATE frogs.
I PREFER LISTENING than TALKING.
I HAVE WEIRD VIEWS about life.
I AM EMO at certain circumstances.
I LOATHE numbers.
I CRY when i read books.
I CRY MORE when i watch movies.
ELY BUENDIA will always be UNINTENDED.

***NORMAL MOST OF THE TIME.

CONVERSE: I LOVE

dark room


LOVING THEM FOREVER

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Friday, July 31, 2009

loving Kpop



peybowit ni tine.
daghan pogi..as in literally!!!!!!!!!!!




xempre anjan c sandy..kaya i lab et :)
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july 31. huling araw na pala! and this has been the most fun, fruitful and weird month-so far...
maraming nangyari at marami ring...ah basta! for this month, ako ay :

1. nagkaroon ng thesis topic (MAGALING!MAGALING!)
2. nakapagpasa ng thesis proposal (NA INOKRAY RIN NI SIR DENNIS)
3. nagka boyfriend (FOR A WEEK..OKAY NA RIN YOWN!)
4. gumawa ng something na adult lamang ang gumagawa... (AUG.10, JUDGMENT DAY)
5.nag make-out (PLEASE DON'T ASK...)
6. naging wasted every MWF... (BLAME SAGAL, MIKMIK, MITCH, DARSI AND BUNGO)
7. naglap dance (ENJOY MAN DIAY XA...)
8. umiyak (PARA SA EMO PART)
9. tumawa (FOR BIPOLAR REASONS)
10. nagbigay ng advice (DAHIL AKO AY GOOD FRIEND)
11. pumunta ng samal na walang dala (BLAME IT AGAIN TO MITCH, JEJE, DARSI AND LISHA)
12. naubos ang pera (AS USUAL)
13. nagpacancel ng rarejob na sunod-sunod. (FOR IGAT2 PURPOSES)
14. natulog ng may katabi (OPO , SI KIANI PO IYAN...)
15. natulog ng 8 hours straight :)))) (ANG TOTAL HAPPINESS)

*** in addition, nag shat ng umaga - ULET!hahahahaha

so, to sum eveything up, i got naughty, nice, bitchy, smart and flirtatious. grabe! but i'm sure there's more to come pero sana..puro nice things na ang mangyari sa august...
siya nga pala, malapit na birthday ko!!!!!!!!!
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Thursday, July 30, 2009

broken pieces

the world shattered right before my very eye.

i thought i was strong enough but i was wrong. it seems that i am the ugliest girl alive. all the efforts made were of no use. everything's gone and i am left here.

i shouldn't have.
i shouldn't have.
i shouldn't have.


i might as well do my homework. i might as well continue loving ely boi..
i might as well love someone who is far far enough from me so that he can never hurt me
and he can never see me cry.
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Tuesday, July 28, 2009

Ten Top Trivia Tips about DARYL GEORGE


  1. DARYL GEORGE, from the movie of the same name, had green blood!
  2. In the kingdom of Bhutan, all citizens officially become DARYL GEORGE on New Year's Day.
  3. If you break DARYL GEORGE, you will get seven years of bad luck.
  4. The ace of spades in a playing card deck symbolizes DARYL GEORGE.
  5. DARYL GEORGE was originally green, and actually contained cocaine!
  6. Until the 1960s, DARYL GEORGE was not allowed to enter Disneyland.
  7. Grapes explode if you put them inside DARYL GEORGE!
  8. If you don't get out of bed on the same side you got in, you will have DARYL GEORGE for the rest of the day!
  9. Without DARYL GEORGE, we would have to pollinate apple trees by hand.
  10. DARYL GEORGEology is the study of DARYL GEORGE.
http://thesurrealist.co.uk/
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Friday, July 24, 2009

best before seal

while contemplating this afternoon, i came across this one song which could somehow summarize my whole life this week..

"flames to dust
lovers to friends
why do all things come to an end..."


i know things have been topsy turvy this past few weeks but i think it is quite an injustice when the moment things are just beginning to sink in and then all of a sudden reality slaps you in the face saying,

"hoi ambisyosa, humana ang imung kaligayan oi!"

so i know my uber friends will again react to this a little emo post but i don't care. i would like give a special shoutout to maan and jeje who were there when i was trying to explain why i don't allow myself to fall in love or even to like someone that much.

remember when i said that dili ko gusto mag fall tungod kay unfair siya for my part kay dali lang ko makagusto tapos ang tao na to wala koi assurance kung gusto sad ko niya? remember when i said that ginatry nako ang akong best to become cool with things especially pag nagakantsaw mo tungod kay naay tendency na madevelop ko? remember when i said na lisod para sa akua na makaget-over sa isa ka butang? remember when i said that gina suppress nako akong self into liking someone na kantsaw-kantsaw lang tungod kay dili ko gusto mag inEMO unya dli xa worthy? remember guys?

and now here you are trying to make me happy. ofcourse i am not angry or pissed with what you are actually doing because you all want me to be happy. ofcourse i am not angry or pissed with what you are actually doing because you all want me not to be emo again. ofcourse i am not angry or pissed with what you are actually doing because you all want me to feel liked and loved even for a week and i am really thankful for that. it is highly appreciated.

however, what i am so disappointed about is that i let myself fall again without even realizing that i don't have any assurance that he might like me. i am so disappointed with myself because i let my heart believe that there might actually someone who will really like me the way i like them. most of all, i am so disappointed with myself because i let myself expect again...

and who knows when i'll get over this? NOBODY. it might take days, weeks, months or even years and i know i will be back to my old self again in a few weeks time.

so there, i said it. i fell. it hurts and it sucks big time.

please don't ask me questions.
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Wednesday, July 22, 2009

my rebuttal to kiani's thoughts.

so kiani opened this notion last sunday about liking somebody from a far and how it could also feel oh so good and oh so nice to not actually hold the person you like but instead love that person from afar. he even explained it so clearly that even i could've fallen to the idea. so here's what he said :

"for example noh, like kunwari kaning ketchup. unang kita pa lang nimu na kita aning ketchup - kabalo jud ka na lami xa. gusto kaayo nimu siya tilawan kaya lang tan-aw nimu kung tilawan nimu siya, kay mawala na ang pagiging special sa taste atong ketchup mao na mas maayo pa na tan-awon nlng nmu xa ug dili tilawan para maretain ang feeling of excitement. siyempre, naa man jud mga butang na mas gustuhon nimu na sa layo lang ka mag admire para dili gud maspoil ang moment..."

yah right kiani. ofcourse i understand that there are some things that you would rather experience from afar so as not to spoil the moment and the feeling. i've been doing that with my addiction to eraserheads - i try my very best to suppress my urges in listening to it so as not to spoil the feeling and that the kind of excitement would be felt every time you listen to it. but guess what kiani? i gave that kind of abnormality up.

anyway, that's not really the point. yes kiani, there are some things that you would rather look and admire from afar. but if you are doing that all your life, don't you think you would also crave for something different? something that you would want to hold or feel? don't you think you'd get sick of loving someone from afar?
i think it is bullshit.

anyway kiani, that's your point so i have nothing against it. i still love you kian! peace lang.

***nagpahungaw lang sa gibati
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Friday, July 17, 2009

in a relationship.

*cross fingers*
i really hope that my friends won't make such a big
deal out of this blog.
*cross fingers*

so here's the catch.
although i am still in quite a shock
and i am still trying to get used to the idea of having
a boyfriend already...
i'm starting to like the different kind of contentment and
happiness that i feel inside.
it's not that i like kuya jerson or what..
but the idea of having someone to call as your boyfriend
really makes me excited.
wala lang..maybe i'm just having a whole lot of thoughts.
marami kasing nangyari. maraming may ayaw, maraming may gusto...
pero gaya nga ng sabi ni lisha, "malay mo may magbago kasi iba ka..."
well i really hope. i really hope.
i kinda like it already.

*** one month extension
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Thursday, July 16, 2009

jerson-THE BOYFRIEND

may boyfriend na ako.
weird noh???
don't know why i feel this way - or if i even feel anything...
wala lang, i think it's still kinda shocking
when suddenly my oh so peaceful and flirtatious life
suddenly turned upside down.
although this is not really formal since it is only for like a week (for crying out loud)
it seems that everyone is expecting for some extension...
o diba? bongga!
maayo pa mo expecting!
hehehehe
anyway, we'll see...

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Tuesday, July 14, 2009

dreams. pictures.dreams.pictures.

i woke up today from a very strange dream. it seems that i have been dreaming with this new friend lately and i can't seem to understand why these dreams are somewhat physically or maybe sexually related (if you know what i mean). anywaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay... here's the thing: the dream was about him and me and that we were lovers of some kind. although it wasn't really explicitly said in the dream, i know for a fact, (in my dream still) that we're somehow related of some sort.

so, we were cuddling close alright. and seeing his cousin in my dream smiling the exact same smile you see when he's just playing dumb stupid. okay, well that was harsh... but really - everything seemed so real. i awoken all of a sudden and thought of calling them if there will be some partei for tonight of some sort. and then no one answered. i don't understand - but something was wrong in the picture. i think something is happening and i wasn't fully aware of it. so i kept on calling but still no answer.

i had grown wary the whole day thinking what was wrong with the picture but i can't seem to point it out. so i kept on racking my brain out until it hurts - but still no answer. okay. so i stopped.

and then i called again. there was an answer. we were back to normal. i was glad.
i was just paranoid.
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Sunday, July 12, 2009

FRIEND OR F.O.E

it's not that i don't like my friends. it's not like i don't understand where they all are coming from. as a matter of fact, i try to understand them as much as possible and even try my very best to meet their expectations so as not to create a huge commotion or a large CAVE mode thingy.

so what am i even blabbering about? well, nothing really. it's just that i have had enough of all the understanding. i may seem to be so cool and all and not giving too much shit about certain stuffs but in real life? i get hurt too.

you guys just don't understand why i have to set aside certain "luxuries" for myself just to meet your own "luxuries." and because i am such a good friend, i have to sacrifice the things that i would really love doing just to be with you guys. and because i am such a good friend, i am not allowed to say NO because i will be dubbed as the KILLEST JOY ON THE PLANET. and because i am such a good friend, i always lend out a helping hand in times of need. and finally, because i am such a good friend, i try to understand all the angst in each and everyone of you because I KNOW WHERE YOU ARE GETTING FROM.

i'm being a bitch. so what? i am pissed! so please forgive me.
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