TWISTED

I LIKE BIPOLARS because they are unpredictable.
I SMILE when i am being mean.
I AM FOND OF MAKING BUBBLE THOUGHTS. i find them very exciting.
I SWEAR when i am happy.
I SWEAR MORE when i am pissed.
I LOVE chicken.
I HATE frogs.
I PREFER LISTENING than TALKING.
I HAVE WEIRD VIEWS about life.
I AM EMO at certain circumstances.
I LOATHE numbers.
I CRY when i read books.
I CRY MORE when i watch movies.
ELY BUENDIA will always be UNINTENDED.

***NORMAL MOST OF THE TIME.

CONVERSE: I LOVE

dark room


LOVING THEM FOREVER

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Friday, December 18, 2009

Not all scars show. Not all wounds heal. Sometimes you can't see, the pain someone feels.

-muhilak ko ron! na! na! na!
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Sunday, December 6, 2009

acid intakes :P

okay. i admit that i LOOOOOOOOVE coke so much. can't live without it.and i had a few drinks a while ago, then suddenly... amfotangutinayanumatakedimakayaangsakit!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i'd rather have a heartache forever. aw,unsa ba! ayaw sad..hahahaha!
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Monday, November 23, 2009

I wondered how long this could last. Maybe someday, years from now—if the pain would just decrease to the point where I could bear it—I would be able to look back on those few short ...months that would always be the best of my life. And, if it were possible that the pain would ever soften enough to allow me to do that, I was sure that I would feel grateful for as much time as he’d given me. More than I’d asked for, more than I’d deserved. Maybe someday I’d be able to see it that way. [Bella Swan]
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Tuesday, November 17, 2009

on shating, sober minds and chikka

i got drunk. thanks mik!

so i have been trying my very best to keep my mouth shut about the things that are happening this past few weeks and of course during the silent times, i have also come to realize that it's time to let go - maybe it's not really worth fighting for. but i would be a hypocrite if i say that i don't think of HIM because i still do - during my idle moments which ATTACKS really really often.

so tonight's topic were about the past heartaches and i am very proud to say that everyone has their own story to tell - that even though i have heard those stories a million times, i still find myself really amazed that we all share the same sentiments - we are in desperate need for someone to love us and their will always be regrets in all the unwise decisions that we have made in the past.

but what really bugged me tonight was when mikmik told me that HE still loves me. i mean, what the fuck is that?? do i really have to hear it now or do you want me to cry right now?? so he kept on defending HIS side until i said, "KABALO MAN KO MIK BA NA DAGHAN XA INSECURITIES. AMINADO KO NA DLI XA ANG LALAKI NA PWEDE MAN GANI MAPAILA-ILA SA PARENTS, PERO NADAWAT MAN NAKO XA DIBA? SUGOD PA LANG MIK...SUKAD SA SUGOD PA LANG...PERO KABALO KA MIK, KUNG GUSTO JUD KO NIA? AS IN GUSTO JUD?? DLI KO NIA BULAGAN..."

so there i said it. he fell silent. JL agreed (i soo love him). i still love HIM. i still do - but there are things that you have to give up to save yourself and to save your heart from dying one more time. but i'm okay now. i really am. i can smile now. i may not be happy but i'm okay.

just so you know.
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Saturday, November 7, 2009

a night of youtube watching

punyetang rarejob yan! (sorry for the language).

haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay. actually i don't really have the right to complain or even to let out some very harsh words 'coz it's all my fault why i'm suffering from this 208 punishment - but i can't help it.

anyway, as to kill the boredom and to somehow pacify my anger, i decided to just watch youtube videos - starting from meg and dia to blink 182 to listening to OSTs of slam dunk and chekyuu sentai - fiveman (yes that's right - that 90s power ranger-ish show), then eventually submitting myself to watching a few episodes (spell loser).

i've also read very controversial stat messages and even managed to find out some very nasty removing of posts in facebook. tried all the applications and even checking my friendster accounts - twice. now define bored.

anyway, the reason why i made this youtube such a big deal is because i have heard just this afternoon that song called DI KO NA MABABAWI by Spongecola. i love that song soooooooooo much and not to mention that i' m a big fan as well as a die hard admirer of yael yuzon (blush). however, i haven't really searched for the lyrics of the song yet because i was so confident that i am very familiar of the song already. but i don't know what really got into me that i still searched the lyrics despite the "familiarity." at dahil isa akong malaking gaga at boba. nakarelate ang lola. o heto na:



Ngayo'y aking inuunawang pilit
Mga pagkukulang kong iyong ginigiit
Sana'y malaman mo na tanging ikaw lamang
Ang aking iniintindi

Nakatanim pa sa'king ala-ala
Pangako mong mananatili ka
Kaya't paglisan mo'y naiwan ang pusong ito
Na ngayo'y bitin na bitin

Chorus:

'Di mo na mababawi iniwang sakit
Sa mga salitang binitiwan mo
Hindi ba't ikaw na rin ang nagpasya, nagtakda
At siyang unang umiwas
Bakit nga ba ako 'yong pinaasa?

Nasa aking guniguni malamig mong tinig
Kasabay ng hanging na dumarampi
Na para bang ika'y nariyan sa aking paligid
Tahimik na nagmamasid

*Repeat Chorus

Nahulog na'ng mga ulap, buwan at araw, mga bituwin
Ang ginugol na panaho'y na saan? (panaho'y na saan)
'Di ba't sayang naman? (Di ba't sayang naman)
Giliw yeah yeah yeah yeah

Ngunit di mo na mababawi iniwang sakit
Sa mga salitang binitiwan mo
Hindi ba't ikaw na rin ang nagpasya, nagtakda
At siyang unang umiwas
Bakit nga ba ako 'yong pinaasa?
Bakit nga ba ako 'yong pinaasa?


PS: oki ah! tapos xaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat! punyeta!
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Wednesday, November 4, 2009

...but i didn't let go without struggle

just one of those things

so here it goes.

i have always liked meg and dia songs, thanks to mitch by the way for introducing me to this duo. anyway, other personal favorites would include setting up sunday, cardigan weather, roses and a few others. it actually reminds me of the infamous "drinking" (define poser) days in zozobrado and meeting the so-called mintal friends which happens to be somewhat dear to my heart.

anyway (eyes rolling), i first heard this song when DEE sang it in DATCOM - yes, you've read that right.. DEE. the very controversial DEE. but it's not really the reason why i posted this song here - it's her words that really caught me, "para sa mga tao na nakaka-experience ng unrequited love, just one of those things - meg and dia." TING!TING!TING! that really struck me. unrequited love pala ha...ma-search nga. and so i saved the title in my outbox in case i forget the song.

so i was browsing my cellphone out of boredom after i think a week? and i found the saved item. i decided to search for the song - you know, give it a try (yah right). then poooooooof! i found the song with lyrics and imagine how teary-eyed i was when i heard it - that fucking (forgive the language) lyrics ruined it - but you know i didn't let go without struggle,you know i still love you. it's just, just one of those things (define emo).

aaaaaaaaaaah! basta... gwapo ang kanta. kewl xa. kewl ko. meg and dia rocks. bow.
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Wednesday, October 28, 2009

blast from the past

because i like living in the past and because these are the songs that i have grown up to (sorry spice girls) - here are just some of the personal favorites.




these songs make me wanna cry... (for the char)



o, xaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat!



kani jud na kanta oh..pirting ngilngiga!



kay ganahan kayo ko magpasuya especially sa mga makabasa LANG ani na blog
(NOTE: dahil MAINGAY PA RIN)



at syempre, pwede ba naman tong mawala?



pero masaag jud ning tagalog diri kay mao ni ang PINAKA-KEWL :p





----SISIHIN RIN ANG AKING NAKAKATANDANG KAPATID SA MGA KANTANG ITO. AKO AY ISANG MASUNURING ANAK LAMANG :))
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Tuesday, October 20, 2009

of all the ways you hurt me - I think the worst was when you stood up and asked her to dance to our song.

-
galing-galing talaga ng fb. dapat iclap-clap. bwishit!


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Thursday, October 8, 2009

good morning slacker!

so this post is one week late. its suppose to be oct.9,2009. 9am


so guess what? my very early morning post would be having him sleep on my bed. good morning diay mga bai! :D

at around 3.30 in the morning, i am still wide awake smoking my pretty face out while drinking my lukewarm coffee (i don't like hot drinks by the way) just to finish my effin thesis in preparation for this afternoon's re-defense. FIGHT!

so i noticed that JL just came home so i shouted "LAAGAN!!!" (if you're not aware, he's just living right across the street. exactly adjacent to my chiong's :) he then called out my name and asked me to come right down so we can have a little chat.

he smelled of Redhorse but i didn't care 'coz i know i smell like that too when i'm drunk. so i told him, "HUBOG MAN KA GANG..." he agreed. then we started talking about how SAGAL paid for 2 buckets of Redhorse plus pulutan and washing. we also talked about Mikmik's bad tripping with his parents until the conversation came right down to Bungo. so he was drunk too all right. at around 4 in the morning, i decided to call it a night with JL since i really think he's really tired and i still have to make some final polishing for my thesis.

by the time i got in and checked my phone, i was surprised to see a text message coming from him asking if he could come over to Chiong's because he needs a place to sleep for the night since he had a fight with his dad. lovefooled as i am, ofcourse i said yes. knowing that he will come over made my whole body shiver - i don't exactly understand why but...i don't know.

well, anyway, he came over looking oh so drunk. i told him to just sleep since i still have to finish my thesis, he just smiled and said "Sure ba?" and to sound casual, "eh kung paulion tika?" i answered back. we finished the conversation with faint smiles.

it was already 5 in the morning when i decided to call it off. when i came in the room, i noticed that he was sleeping on a slanting position so i still have to think on how i could sleep without waking him up. when i managed to position myself, sleep wouldn't visit me - as a matter of fact, i was really,REALLY awake. so what i did, i just sat in front of him and watched him sleep. lots of thoughts came through my mind - lots of flashbacks even.

and the weirdest thing i did?waking up in the morning, falling in love with person who broke my standards. heck! i didn't even sleep! i was really wide awake! oh my fuckin' shit! how could this happen to me?? how could i fall inlove with someone who is so cruel? and why would i even bother to take time off my day and try to prove to him that i am oh so okay when i fact i am not!

as emo as it may sound, every night i wait for him. every alcohol i take is for him. it even surprises me for the things that i could do just to keep him around - all this because of what??!!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK LOVE!

so, i tried to lay down and this time i told him to move aside. we hugged afterwards. my heart melted. my whole world stopped. it's just so sad to think that we can only do this if we are both drunk or when he is drunk. it bleeds my heart to know that after this, we will back to our own world again just as if nothing happened.

then, it was 5.30. it's time to get up and continue my thesis.

he woke up at around 7. he said he's going.
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Tuesday, October 6, 2009

possessive mode on

oo, aminado ko na irrational ni akuang pagka selosa. ug aning mga panahuna, dili dapat ginapairal ning mga selos-selos issue tungod kay kita tanan amigo ug kita tanan dapat naay equality. pero unsaon man nako pagpugong sa akong gibati kung mismo ako makakita na naa jud mga panghitabo na dili jud pwede iignore?

sige ah. nasabtan man nako na dili ka mutxt sa akua kay tungod "awkward" kunuhay...pero unta lang, dili pud ka mutxt sa tao na akua jud maconsider na competition. mangtas man paminawon pero, oo, aminado ko, dili nako maiwasan usahay na maconsider xa na competition tungod sa inyo ginapakita ug ginapa feel.

tapos, feeling sikreto2 na mu.. kinsa ba gud ang ganahan ana?? unsa buang??!!!!! comment2 daun sa friendster, yati ra! ktong kita pa gni kay "ajejeje" ug smiley ra gni ang akua! murag sobra na ni ah! pero sige lang kay tungod friend taka ug lab nako xa, pagbigyan tamo..

sori lang kay selosa. pero ambot! makasuya lang na mas close mo na kung buot huna-hunaon una mi ngkaila ug una mi nagkasabay! yati ra! EX KO NIA baha! hinay2 lang..yawa!

nasuya nako ba ha... pero kay kablo ko na kampi na mo wla nko mbhat. selfish betch ko. possessive betch ko. sori lang kay IKAW JUD NAPUD ANG NAKATRIGGER ANING BUANGA KA!


comment pa ha! more! more!
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Monday, September 28, 2009

fb love quotes and advice.

FROM SARAH:

Sometimes we tend to be in despair, when the person we love leaves, but the truth is that this is not our loss. Its theirs, because... they left the only person in the world who would never give up on them.


FROM LOURDES:
I know that you feel me somehow.


MINE:
I dont know why they call it heartbreak. It feels like every part of my body is broken too.


***putanginanglabyananggalingmagadviceperoanghirapgawin! pwedebamagworkangworldnapuroquotesnlngangnggogovern??!!!!!

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Friday, September 25, 2009

confessions of a slacker

i am a slacker and forgive me for being one.
i decided to make this blog as an apology letter to all
the people who got affected with my slacker fest these past few weeks.

First and foremost, to JM. i am very sorry that i have been very irresponsible and inconsiderate.
i should have thought about the project first, but because i am too selfish i totally forgot that i had things to attend to.

Next, to Maan. I am very sorry that i had disappointed you again. My silence again, I'm sure made a fuss and not going to school plus drinking every night made it all worse. I'm sorry for not meeting you last Thursday. It totally slipped my mind.

Lastly, to Tine who's been defending me ever since. I'm so sorry that I am like this. I know I'm in totally bad shape right now and I know that you are starting to get tired of being always on my side. I admit that I have mistaken and please forgive me.

Finally, to all the people that got affected with this not so fabulous deed that i have done, i apologize. but please allow me to keep all these private - that i can't say the exact reasons why this has been happening

i am in deep shit right now, i know. and nobody's to blame but me. but i am not asking for help because i can do it better my way. all i need is understanding as of the moment. i'll be back but not soon enough. i will take this slow. i will go home to contemplate and rethink all the things that i have done. i hope i can still see you guys with open arms by the time i'm back.

once again, i'm sorry. please forgive me, you guys.



*** i just love him so much...
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Wednesday, September 23, 2009

di na natuto

"Hindi lungkot o takot ang mahirap sa pag-iisa kundi ang pagtanggap na sa bilyon-bilyong tao sa mundo, wala man lang nakipaglaban upang makasama ka."

bob ong



ang masasabi ko lang...
daghan na ta!!!!!!!!!!!

***apir pina-ambak
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Tuesday, September 22, 2009

dearest


to this special someone who is not so special after all:



every night i ask myself what went wrong or maybe what's wrong with me.
and how i could still sit here and watch you and keep everything cool.
where do i get the courage to face you? even text you? even throw jokes when you're around?
i have been trying so hard to think that you don't deserve all this attention,
that after all you are just a piece of shit who likes to play
games and unfortunately i was one of your victims.
but how come i can't make myself hate you?

anyway, i still wish you the best of luck. and whenever you need me i am just around the corner and just a text away. i can't say goodbye. but i can't wait for too long either. after all, we are just under the same lonely sky...
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Thursday, September 17, 2009

sorry sorry



dahil tinatamad na naman ako kaya naisipan kong magpacancel ulit ng klase ko sa rarejob. good luck sa sweldo. tapos, naisip ko na mag video watching na lang muna sa youtube at naalala ko si mikmik dahil may nagchange ng relationship status sa friendster. kaya ito, para sa'yo 'tol! para hindi ka masyado ma-stress...ahkae??!
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Sunday, September 6, 2009

mga aligutgot

akig ka gid sa akon haw? grabe ka naman..
bal-an mu gid nga gipagsisihan ko na ang tanan...
ngaa indi mu pa gid to makalimtan???
hambal lang bala kung akig ka para
hindi ko ma-sige hulat sa imu ba.
ti ano? gin-atake mo ko sa weakness ko...
lipay ka na haw? na-hurt mo na ko...
nakabalos naman kamu ba...
ngaa indi gid pwede pagkalimtan tong mga
butang nato haw? ato gid kadako2 ang sala ko haw?
ano mana man?? du'oh mortal sin to ba...
ginhilakan ko na to...
gina haunt ko hantod krn..
tapos nainsulto mo na ko..
akig ka lang ghapon???
ti, diin ang maturity sina?
abi ko ba mau ka musabot..
na tarong ka na kasabay..
siling mo pa gani sato, "kung dili ko maayo na amigo jorj dugay
na nako to giingon sa iya..."
ti, mas gingusto ko pa na gin hambal mu sa iya para mas bibo ba...
kaurugot gid ng mga cold treatment ba.
ako lang gihapon ang may sala.
ti, gindawat ko na gani...napildi nako mo.
ano pa gid gusto mo haw???
haheyz...
ti maano ta sini karon? kalimtanay na lang?
indi bala gid ko dali makalimot.
indi mo gid ko pagtistingan kay na..hindi na lang
gid ko masabat.




stay put ka lang bala dah...
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august rush

while july was a blast, august was somewhat...hmmm, let me think..controversial? or hmmm.. maybe the most proper word would be unconventional which is rather interesting. ambot. weird. haaaaaaaay, i'm lost for words. bsta things just happened quickly and before i knew it, it was all gone.

siguro, i didn't try hard enough. much has been said and done and lots of emotions have been hurt. too many things happened which got out of hand. and i wasn't able to get a hold of it. these past few months had it's own story to tell.

it all started as a joke...
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Wednesday, August 12, 2009

YOU'VE ALWAYS GOT TIME FOR DARYL GEORGE


http://thesurrealist.co.uk/slogan.cgi


1. What do you say to yourself every morning?
THINGS HAPPEN AFTER DARYL GEORGE..

***beware..hahahhahahahhahaha

2. What do you want other people say about you?

PLINK,PLINK DARYL GEORGE..

***ang meaning diay sa plink kay TO MAKE A SOFT METALLIC SOUND..lol


3. Someone asked you out, your answer is...

GET THE DOOR - IT'S DARYL GEORGE
***dahil ako ang queen :))

4. How would you answer a booty call?

SNAP INTO A DARYL GEORGE
***then shake what your momma gave you!!!!!!!!hahahahahahahaha

5. How would you introduce yourself to someone you really like?

HANDS TO DO DISHES CAN BE AS SOFT CAN BE AS SOFT AS DARYL GEORGE

***daaaaaaah! hapla!


6. --to someone you dislike?
GOOD TO THE LAST DARYL GEORGE

***
hahahaha. suya ka tuwad!!!!!! ;)

7. You're in a conversation and you suddenly feel the need to pee, how would you excuse yourself?
YOU CAN ON A DARYL GEORGE, CAN DO!
***du-oh switch ba..hahahahahaha :))

8. Your parents ask you why you got home late, you say...
THINGS GO BETTER WITH DARYL GEORGE
***dahil ako ay isang mabuting anak..minus the bisyo :)))


9. You're failing a subject, you say...
HOW DO YOU EAT YOUR DARYL GEORGE
***daaaaah! ang subject nlng jud ang mu-give up! never say die! lol

10. The love of your life asks you to marry him/her, what do you say?
TIME TO MAKE THE DARYL GEORGE
***yay! lol


11. Your bf/gf is breaking up with you, you tell him/her...
TONIGHT LET IT BE DARYL GEORGE
**** break-up sex daw...hahahahahaha! kewlness!!!!!! :)))

12. Someone told you you're an asshole, you tell them...
CLEANS RIGHT ROUND THE DARYL GEORGE
**** dahil ako ay malinis??? lol

13. What are the best words to describe you?
ABSLOUT DARYL GEORGE
**** the best one of the best ones,indeed :))

14. If you're going to have a movie about your life, the title is...
THE NON-STICKY STICKY DARYL GEORGE
**** unsa man jud???hahahahahaha

15. Your last words before you die...
HALF THE DARYL GEORGE, ALL THE TASTE
**** pagtago nlng jud daan!!!!! hahahaha

16. Your message to a special someone.
IT'S THAT DARYL GEORGE FEELING
**** bebe q oh.. weeeeeeeeeee

17. Title of this post will be...
YOU'VE ALWAYS GOT TIME FOR DARYL GEORGE
**** u know i'm worth it :))))
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Friday, August 7, 2009

the show




***slow it down, make it stop
or else my heart is going to pop...




ps: i'm so scared but i don't show it :)
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Sunday, August 2, 2009

"its funny how someone can break your heart and you can still love them with all the little pieces"
-kankan








ang masasabi ko lang ay one word:

EXACTLY!!!!!!!!!!
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Friday, July 31, 2009

loving Kpop



peybowit ni tine.
daghan pogi..as in literally!!!!!!!!!!!




xempre anjan c sandy..kaya i lab et :)
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0709

july 31. huling araw na pala! and this has been the most fun, fruitful and weird month-so far...
maraming nangyari at marami ring...ah basta! for this month, ako ay :

1. nagkaroon ng thesis topic (MAGALING!MAGALING!)
2. nakapagpasa ng thesis proposal (NA INOKRAY RIN NI SIR DENNIS)
3. nagka boyfriend (FOR A WEEK..OKAY NA RIN YOWN!)
4. gumawa ng something na adult lamang ang gumagawa... (AUG.10, JUDGMENT DAY)
5.nag make-out (PLEASE DON'T ASK...)
6. naging wasted every MWF... (BLAME SAGAL, MIKMIK, MITCH, DARSI AND BUNGO)
7. naglap dance (ENJOY MAN DIAY XA...)
8. umiyak (PARA SA EMO PART)
9. tumawa (FOR BIPOLAR REASONS)
10. nagbigay ng advice (DAHIL AKO AY GOOD FRIEND)
11. pumunta ng samal na walang dala (BLAME IT AGAIN TO MITCH, JEJE, DARSI AND LISHA)
12. naubos ang pera (AS USUAL)
13. nagpacancel ng rarejob na sunod-sunod. (FOR IGAT2 PURPOSES)
14. natulog ng may katabi (OPO , SI KIANI PO IYAN...)
15. natulog ng 8 hours straight :)))) (ANG TOTAL HAPPINESS)

*** in addition, nag shat ng umaga - ULET!hahahahaha

so, to sum eveything up, i got naughty, nice, bitchy, smart and flirtatious. grabe! but i'm sure there's more to come pero sana..puro nice things na ang mangyari sa august...
siya nga pala, malapit na birthday ko!!!!!!!!!
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Thursday, July 30, 2009

broken pieces

the world shattered right before my very eye.

i thought i was strong enough but i was wrong. it seems that i am the ugliest girl alive. all the efforts made were of no use. everything's gone and i am left here.

i shouldn't have.
i shouldn't have.
i shouldn't have.


i might as well do my homework. i might as well continue loving ely boi..
i might as well love someone who is far far enough from me so that he can never hurt me
and he can never see me cry.
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Tuesday, July 28, 2009

Ten Top Trivia Tips about DARYL GEORGE


  1. DARYL GEORGE, from the movie of the same name, had green blood!
  2. In the kingdom of Bhutan, all citizens officially become DARYL GEORGE on New Year's Day.
  3. If you break DARYL GEORGE, you will get seven years of bad luck.
  4. The ace of spades in a playing card deck symbolizes DARYL GEORGE.
  5. DARYL GEORGE was originally green, and actually contained cocaine!
  6. Until the 1960s, DARYL GEORGE was not allowed to enter Disneyland.
  7. Grapes explode if you put them inside DARYL GEORGE!
  8. If you don't get out of bed on the same side you got in, you will have DARYL GEORGE for the rest of the day!
  9. Without DARYL GEORGE, we would have to pollinate apple trees by hand.
  10. DARYL GEORGEology is the study of DARYL GEORGE.
http://thesurrealist.co.uk/
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Friday, July 24, 2009

best before seal

while contemplating this afternoon, i came across this one song which could somehow summarize my whole life this week..

"flames to dust
lovers to friends
why do all things come to an end..."


i know things have been topsy turvy this past few weeks but i think it is quite an injustice when the moment things are just beginning to sink in and then all of a sudden reality slaps you in the face saying,

"hoi ambisyosa, humana ang imung kaligayan oi!"

so i know my uber friends will again react to this a little emo post but i don't care. i would like give a special shoutout to maan and jeje who were there when i was trying to explain why i don't allow myself to fall in love or even to like someone that much.

remember when i said that dili ko gusto mag fall tungod kay unfair siya for my part kay dali lang ko makagusto tapos ang tao na to wala koi assurance kung gusto sad ko niya? remember when i said that ginatry nako ang akong best to become cool with things especially pag nagakantsaw mo tungod kay naay tendency na madevelop ko? remember when i said na lisod para sa akua na makaget-over sa isa ka butang? remember when i said that gina suppress nako akong self into liking someone na kantsaw-kantsaw lang tungod kay dili ko gusto mag inEMO unya dli xa worthy? remember guys?

and now here you are trying to make me happy. ofcourse i am not angry or pissed with what you are actually doing because you all want me to be happy. ofcourse i am not angry or pissed with what you are actually doing because you all want me not to be emo again. ofcourse i am not angry or pissed with what you are actually doing because you all want me to feel liked and loved even for a week and i am really thankful for that. it is highly appreciated.

however, what i am so disappointed about is that i let myself fall again without even realizing that i don't have any assurance that he might like me. i am so disappointed with myself because i let my heart believe that there might actually someone who will really like me the way i like them. most of all, i am so disappointed with myself because i let myself expect again...

and who knows when i'll get over this? NOBODY. it might take days, weeks, months or even years and i know i will be back to my old self again in a few weeks time.

so there, i said it. i fell. it hurts and it sucks big time.

please don't ask me questions.
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Wednesday, July 22, 2009

my rebuttal to kiani's thoughts.

so kiani opened this notion last sunday about liking somebody from a far and how it could also feel oh so good and oh so nice to not actually hold the person you like but instead love that person from afar. he even explained it so clearly that even i could've fallen to the idea. so here's what he said :

"for example noh, like kunwari kaning ketchup. unang kita pa lang nimu na kita aning ketchup - kabalo jud ka na lami xa. gusto kaayo nimu siya tilawan kaya lang tan-aw nimu kung tilawan nimu siya, kay mawala na ang pagiging special sa taste atong ketchup mao na mas maayo pa na tan-awon nlng nmu xa ug dili tilawan para maretain ang feeling of excitement. siyempre, naa man jud mga butang na mas gustuhon nimu na sa layo lang ka mag admire para dili gud maspoil ang moment..."

yah right kiani. ofcourse i understand that there are some things that you would rather experience from afar so as not to spoil the moment and the feeling. i've been doing that with my addiction to eraserheads - i try my very best to suppress my urges in listening to it so as not to spoil the feeling and that the kind of excitement would be felt every time you listen to it. but guess what kiani? i gave that kind of abnormality up.

anyway, that's not really the point. yes kiani, there are some things that you would rather look and admire from afar. but if you are doing that all your life, don't you think you would also crave for something different? something that you would want to hold or feel? don't you think you'd get sick of loving someone from afar?
i think it is bullshit.

anyway kiani, that's your point so i have nothing against it. i still love you kian! peace lang.

***nagpahungaw lang sa gibati
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Friday, July 17, 2009

in a relationship.

*cross fingers*
i really hope that my friends won't make such a big
deal out of this blog.
*cross fingers*

so here's the catch.
although i am still in quite a shock
and i am still trying to get used to the idea of having
a boyfriend already...
i'm starting to like the different kind of contentment and
happiness that i feel inside.
it's not that i like kuya jerson or what..
but the idea of having someone to call as your boyfriend
really makes me excited.
wala lang..maybe i'm just having a whole lot of thoughts.
marami kasing nangyari. maraming may ayaw, maraming may gusto...
pero gaya nga ng sabi ni lisha, "malay mo may magbago kasi iba ka..."
well i really hope. i really hope.
i kinda like it already.

*** one month extension
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Thursday, July 16, 2009

jerson-THE BOYFRIEND

may boyfriend na ako.
weird noh???
don't know why i feel this way - or if i even feel anything...
wala lang, i think it's still kinda shocking
when suddenly my oh so peaceful and flirtatious life
suddenly turned upside down.
although this is not really formal since it is only for like a week (for crying out loud)
it seems that everyone is expecting for some extension...
o diba? bongga!
maayo pa mo expecting!
hehehehe
anyway, we'll see...

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Tuesday, July 14, 2009

dreams. pictures.dreams.pictures.

i woke up today from a very strange dream. it seems that i have been dreaming with this new friend lately and i can't seem to understand why these dreams are somewhat physically or maybe sexually related (if you know what i mean). anywaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay... here's the thing: the dream was about him and me and that we were lovers of some kind. although it wasn't really explicitly said in the dream, i know for a fact, (in my dream still) that we're somehow related of some sort.

so, we were cuddling close alright. and seeing his cousin in my dream smiling the exact same smile you see when he's just playing dumb stupid. okay, well that was harsh... but really - everything seemed so real. i awoken all of a sudden and thought of calling them if there will be some partei for tonight of some sort. and then no one answered. i don't understand - but something was wrong in the picture. i think something is happening and i wasn't fully aware of it. so i kept on calling but still no answer.

i had grown wary the whole day thinking what was wrong with the picture but i can't seem to point it out. so i kept on racking my brain out until it hurts - but still no answer. okay. so i stopped.

and then i called again. there was an answer. we were back to normal. i was glad.
i was just paranoid.
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Sunday, July 12, 2009

FRIEND OR F.O.E

it's not that i don't like my friends. it's not like i don't understand where they all are coming from. as a matter of fact, i try to understand them as much as possible and even try my very best to meet their expectations so as not to create a huge commotion or a large CAVE mode thingy.

so what am i even blabbering about? well, nothing really. it's just that i have had enough of all the understanding. i may seem to be so cool and all and not giving too much shit about certain stuffs but in real life? i get hurt too.

you guys just don't understand why i have to set aside certain "luxuries" for myself just to meet your own "luxuries." and because i am such a good friend, i have to sacrifice the things that i would really love doing just to be with you guys. and because i am such a good friend, i am not allowed to say NO because i will be dubbed as the KILLEST JOY ON THE PLANET. and because i am such a good friend, i always lend out a helping hand in times of need. and finally, because i am such a good friend, i try to understand all the angst in each and everyone of you because I KNOW WHERE YOU ARE GETTING FROM.

i'm being a bitch. so what? i am pissed! so please forgive me.
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Friday, June 19, 2009

ABSENCE

i had the weirdest dream about you last night.and because you suddenly crossed my peaceful world, i decided to try and check you out in case your around - atleast i can hear you say "hi chabi-chabi!" for about a second.but, you weren't there.kuya said you didn't work today because you might be busy with something else.and then i suddenly felt sad.but i decided to wait for you still, in case you would arrive.but you didn't.i waited.i waited.i waited.an hour has passed, your friends have passed but not even a single shadow appeared.i felt sad and empty.i am happy when i dream about you.i am happy when i see you.i'm happy - for awhile.i don't like you but you make me happy. it's weird. it's strange. it sucks.
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Friday, June 5, 2009

ang aking future...

and since the beginning of my eternal damnation is fast approaching, i was doing some intellectual thinking which is strictly for those who are intellectually gifted but oftentimes neglect it. what i meant by this is that during my idle moments, i think of possible thesis topics that could be of great help for my future. and from what i have gathered, most of these topics should be observed or should be studied (CHAR) while watching tv since most of these topics are from the advertising world.

THESIS NO.1
so what? well, i choose this ad since most of my friends are really big fans of ely buendia..no, i'm just kidding. what could be a possible problem with this ad? hmm, i was thinking of mainly how the campaign affects the number of pledges in their homepage and if the celebrities and other well-known personalities contribute for these pledges given by the people. (RATING: 3 STARS)

THESIS NO.2

my next possible topic is my favorite primetime teleserye. this topic would be very convenient since i am thinking of having the survey method in getting the needed results. the primary question would be why does this show sky rockets in primetime? (RATING: 4 STARS)






THESIS NO.3
well, the final set of the eraserheads concert was really my first choice for my thesis topic. however, i would be targetting the advertising stuffs if i would go with this topic. the main discussion of this topic would evolve on the major sponsors of the said event and did their advertising strategies affected the turn-out of the event. but i am still keeping my fingers crossed with this topic. (RATING: 2 STARS)




OTHER POSSIBLE TOPICS:
since, i was a sucker for advertisements this summer( eh sa yun lang ang napagkakaabalahan ko..) i was also rooting for black and white advertisements which seems to very popular these days. aside from that i am also thinking of venturing into some radion programs and find out what's all the fuss about especially on killerbee's night shows.

P.S.
wala pa po yang mga communication theories kaya good luck!
pero rough draft na yan in case...sana man lang may okay kahit isa jan noh...
AMBICHOSA (del Mundo, 2009) kasi me eh..hehehe.

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Wednesday, June 3, 2009

DEAR DIARY

today is june 3 and just like any other day, my afternoon routine would include sleeping till 3 pm, watching kambal sa uma and precious hearts romances. so guess what? i'm not really productive in the afternoons so i try my very best to finish everything before it's 12 nn. bago ako atakihin ng *EHEM* antok...zzzzzzzzzzzzzz

but that's not what i wanted to talk about, really. what i want to tell you is about this certain scenes in my top 2 favorite tv shows as of the moment (given na wala kaming STUDIO 23). there was this funny scene in kambal sa uma where DINO was telling VIRA that he really loves her. ofcourse, VIRA won't believe him, after she saw her sister YNEZ kissing DINO infront of her. then, while DINO tried to explain himself, VIRA gave him the one-million peso worth line "MAHAL MO KO PERO HINDI YAN ANG NARARAMDAMAN KO...." or something like that. anyway, so DINO goes on and on again blabbering about why he loves VIRA and this one hilarious line struck me "IKAW ANG NAIISIP KO ARAW-ARAW AT IKAW RIN ANG NAPAPANAGINIPAN KO GABI-GABI. HINDI SIYA ANG GUSTO KO KASI HINDI IKAW..." o diba??pamatay! but i guess, it never really worked on VIRA..eh umalis agad si VIRA sa scene eh...

next was the precious hearts romances scene. so it wasn't that remarkable - the scene but one line that TAMMY'S friend told her really bugged me "DAHIL DEEP IN SIDE, DAMSEL-IN-DISTRESS KA PA RIN..." ayown! para akong natunaw. could these lines get any worse???

so, after the usual routine, i decided to take a bath. but before i could pick up the TABO...i then thought that maybe i also wanted to experience what VIRA and TAMMY are experiencing - even hear those words being said to me.

wala lang, napaisip lang ako and after the muni-muni, i decided to take my first plunge...SARAP NG BUHAAAAAAAAAY.....
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Friday, May 29, 2009

myquizbox.com

actually, natake ko na pala 'to..pero dahil inggetera ulit ako, thanks sa link maan ha!

Your view on yourself:

Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

*CHAAAAAAR

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.

* WALA NAMAN KASI AKONG TINITINGNAN. AND BESIDES, WHAT DOES BE OPEN0-MINDED MEAN?ARE YOU SUGGESTING SOMETHING DISGUSTING?....

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

*SANA LANG PERO MALAPIT NA AKONG MAPAGOD...

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

*HAHAHAHA. OKAY WALA AKONG KINALAMAN DITO!

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

*I KNOW IT IS IMPORTANT...AND THE REST IS WELL.. *COUGHS*

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

*AYAN,ETO YUNG GUSTO KO EH..HAHAHA

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

* COURAGE.COURAGE.COURAGE. I'LL KEEP IT IN MIND :)

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

* AKALA KO FROGS..NAKALIMUTAN KO SERIOUS PALA ITO...HEHE

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

* OH, MOODY DAW..DI NAMAN MASYADO EH..
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MOVIE MARATHON


dahil hindi ako makatulog kagabi, i decided to finish the movie na matagal ng nakapending sa utak ko at ang title nito ay proof starring gwyneth paltrow, anthony hopkins and nakalimutan ko ang name ng leading man (PEACE!)

the movie was okay. actually i was very intrigued about the story of these math geeks working together and you know, trying to find out proofs. it really had a good story, to tell you the truth until it ended abruptly. and what i meant by abruptly is literally - alam mo yung, feel na feel mo na ang moment tapos bigla na lang lumabas ang EFFIN end credits! hay nakooooooooow! kaya my plans of making my self sleep was gone. hindi ako mapakali eh, i had to do something. so i decided to browse the other DVDs my dad has.

so,while cursing silently due to my disappointment sa first movie, i stumbled upon some 5 in 1s and 12 in 1s na pirated. and then i saw this title called the hottie and the nottie which i know na si paris hilton ang bida. so because i am big fan of hers, i tried watching the movie. although, i know the story is quite predictable already. so, eto na, i put the dvd sa component and started browsing it. i chose the hottie and the nottie. well. at first i was kind of shocked with the intro of the movie which is some sort of retro. pero, i thought, this is just maybe an attention grabber of the movie so i decided to continue watching. pero hindi pa rin ako mapakali. i think that there is something wrong with the movie, so i tried the fast forward method kasi pwede naman yun..hehehe ONLY TO FIND OUT THAT the movie was actually titled THE HOTTEST STATE! dude ang laaaaayoooooooooooooo nun sa the hottie and the nottie.
pero nga dahil masyadong mataas ang UMAASA NALANG PARATI level ko, ayan, binalik ko na naman sa top menu incase i clicked the wrong movie, kung di niyo kasi natatanong, maypagka tanga ako minsan. so, this time, i was looking closely to the remote button and the movie title then CLICK! pero langya tong pirated na DVD na to! hindi pala ko ang may kasalanan- sila! the hottest state pa rin ang palabas...*RATED PG FOR EXPLICIT CONTENT*

so, while cursing again - but this time louder, i tried looking for other DVDs again while trying to watch bandila..hay nako, malapit na mg 12 at wala pa rin akong movie na nagugustuhan, and then i found the prestige starring hugh jackman and scarlet johansson. i was very happy. i was kind of meaning to watch the film but it kept slipping through my mind. i was really excited to put the DVD again to the component. and voila! ang galing ng movie...i wasn't disappointed at all. maganda ang plot and maganda si scarlett at sexy si hugh jackman. it's fun to watch movies like these - and it's all about magic - because michael caine and hugh jackman are both magicians. basta, jaws dropped ako while watching. although it's a long movie-2 am na ata ako natulog nun, but it was all worth it. buti na lang maganda ang movie dahil kung hindi....
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Thursday, May 21, 2009

BLOOPERS.


so before i bid goodbye, i would like to announce to everyone that i am working here. indeed, i am working in this not-so-rare-kind-of-job anymore - if you know what i mean. but, can you blame me? i need some dough bro! (char, rhyming...)

so, this job isn't as challenging as what you think it is. i guess that's the reason why most students in UP start applying for this job. aside from the fact that you just have to sit for quite a few hours, make some CHAR-CHAR with you students, write some tutoring notes like you really mean everything you say, it also is full of hilarious moments.

actually, marami ng awkward at funny moments dito sa rarejob which starts from students to tutors to tutor notes. at dahil gusto kong malaman ng buong mundo kung gaano kasaya at ka-stressful ang trabahong 'to...eto yung mga instances na hinding-hindi mo malilimutan at worthy namang balikan especially pag wala kang ginagawa.

INSTANCE NUMBER 1:

TUTOR: hello good evening! how are you?
STUDENT: i would like to continue with my SBS lesson page
TUTOR: oh, okay no problem.

SPAM: lahat ng rarejobber guilty sa mga ganitong moments. especially pag nasa mood ka na makipag kumustahan sa student mo. pero dahil filing ng student mo eh magchichika-chika lang kayo for 5 minutes, kaya siguro automatic na ang reply na yan.

INSTANCE NUMBER 2: (while having rarejob material or SBS)

TUTOR: okay, let's proceed to number... what do you think is the answer?
*thinking time dahil hindi rin alam ang answer*
STUDENT: i think it is
TUTOR: hmmm.are you sure?*thinking time ulit*
STUDENT: yes.
TUTOR: oh very good! i'm just trying to test you if you are sure of the answer.

SPAM: walang tatalo sa palusot na yan! yan ang mga moments na 2 minutes before the time nagpapareserve ang student kaya hindi pa nabasa ang tutoring notes at nareview ang activity. pero nagwowork rin naman ang mga rasong ito. just be careful not to use it most of the time dahil baka sa goodbye na sa loyal students mo.

INSTANCE NUMBER 3:

TUTOR: so, do you have any questions with the article?
STUDENT: yes. i don't know the meaning of
TUTOR: oh, okay..so means *mabilisang paghahanap sa dictionary.com* hmm, it is like...*loading ang page* i'm trying to give you the easiest meaning..hmmm, *yes,open na ang page!* okay! so it is like

SPAM: minsan nakakapanic ang moment na ito. to tell you the truth, alam naman talaga ng tutor ang mining eh - hindi lang niya alam paano iexplain *wink*


more to come :)



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YOU LOVE ME

I moved around from town to town
lots of people around, but still so lonely

friendships would grow then i'd hit the road
making up excuses for why i had to leave

always been too scared and unprepared
to let anybody get too close to me

but when i met you right away i knew
you would never ever ever hurt me

and the road's still long but you come along
and you hold my hand and you understand

when i look at you i can't believe it's true
you're all i ever dreamed of and you love me
and you love me, and you love me

i love the song.
i believe that this song will also be part of the OST
here in my rollercoaster kind of life.

PS. emo mode at its finest :) loving kimya dawson more and more
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Wednesday, May 20, 2009

nakakamiss...

i arrived at around 6:30 pm in eprime. upon entering, i automatically noticed that all the units are full but, i still asked anyway, just in case ARTE LANG ANG UBAN CUSTOMER and they prefer to have a "cubicled" unit. but, i was shocked when a new face surfaced from paul's throne...

to my shock, hapit ko nakasyagit ug "KINSAAAAAAAAAAAA KAAAA???!!!!!!" pero to tell you the truth, dili man jud sa wala ko kaila sa nagbantay. actually, i have seen him/her(bading man gud) twice sa eprime (gimik bar branch)SPAM:as you can see maraming branch ang eprime.

so, kalit lang ko na gimingaw kay paul. or basig nabag-uhan lang ko kay wala siya and usually, babae ang gapuli sa iya pag rest day ug DILI BINABAE*wink*

then, i realized na REST DAY niya pala today kaya wala siya. sadness flooded through my vains dayon akong drama miski dili gud kaayo - para lang ma-feel ang moment. it's different pala when he's not around (CHAR.) pero bitaw, i think it's a little different.


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Tuesday, May 19, 2009

ERASERHEADS ONCE AGAIN :)



offline ang student for 8:30 at closed naman ang 9:00 pm. okay lang...hindi ako masyadong disappointed kasi GOD has been showering me with a full load for the past 2 days at ayaw ko rin na man ipressure si LORD noh...

anyway, hindi naman kasi talaga yan ang kwento. ganito kasi yon: after eraserheads self deprivation mode for almost a month, i decided to listen to listen to Spoliarium again before my class starts and before i knew it, i was already listening to Sembreak, Butterscotch, Sa Wakas and other personal favorites sang by the band.

oh, you might be wondering why i did some self-deprivation? ganito kasi yon ulit: kapag PEBORITO ko ang isang bagay - yung talagang paboritong paboritong paborito ko talaga, i tend to stop myself from liking them too much TO THE POINT na HINDI KO PINAKIKINGGAN para mapreserve ang FEELING OF EXCITEMENT kumbaga...(e.g. PAG NAKINIG AKO NG EHEADS NGAYON, BUKAS DAPAT HINDI NA. KELANGAN AFTER 2 WEEKS OR A MONTH BAGO AKO MAKINIG ULIT.) oh di ba? weird talaga ako.

anyway, i felt UBERLY KILIG TO THE NTH LEVEL NA OA NA while listening to it again...oh ayan, my self-deprivation is worth it! ang sarap ng feeling na after mo pinagbawalan ang sarili mo eh bigla mo na lang bibiglain yung utak mo na AYAN, PWEDE NA. TAPOS NA ANG SAKRIPISYO.. hindi mo maintindihan noh? ako rin..hindi ko maintindihan sarili ko..HAHAHAHAHAHA

but all i know is i am sooooooooooo happy today listening to my favorite band again. ang sarap ng feeling talaga. sobra! try nyo to minsan and you will be surprised....I STRONGLY RECOMMEND IT.
PRAMIS!
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Monday, May 18, 2009

EX ALERT

BUZZ!
BUZZ!
BUZZ!
si lloyd kay nagsamok-samok na pud.
pagka nalang... guess what he asked me to do tonight??
GUESS.GUESS.GUESS.
he wanted me to do some reaction paper with his HELPER VS HELPEE thingy about
leading and interviews and all. it was a little difficult and this wasn't the first time
he asked me a favor to do his projects. since college started, i think he has asked me around
a couple of times to make some of his essays for him.
well, it's not really a sore because he pays me...
but tonight it was different...IYA JUD KO GIDALI-DALI!
MURA RABA JUD UG UNSA KA SAYON!
it was so confusing and thank goodness, 8 sentences lang dapat but what's BAGA TO THE BONES
is LAHI ANG SUMMARY SA REACTION..
good thing my student was absent, so i was able to attend to MY BELOVED EX'S NEEDS
*eyes rolling*
PAGKA GAGU NA LANG..
he promised to pay me though..
LLOYD! NAGSAPAW NA IMU UTANG..

p.s. pasalamat ka may pinagsamahan tayo...

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VAMPIRE-ish

i cried before going to work tonight.
dili ni siya emo ha...
i cried because my very handsome and cute nephew has some
vampiric abilities a.k.a NAGAPAMAAK.
he bit me. I REPEAT: HE BIT ME. GIPAAK KO NIYA!
i was on the verge on making pamalikas because it was really painful...
but before i let our a huge PUTAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAANG INAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA..
i gathered all my thoughts and my self up and just cried
while saying AGAAAAAAAAAY, PA C NIKHO OH....
buti na lang! at si nikho ang napagalitan
dahil kung hindi ko napigil ang sarili ko...
BASIG AKO ANG GIBITAY SA AKONG FERENTS...
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Sunday, May 17, 2009

EMO-ness mode

I'm a big big girl
in a big big world
It's not a big big thing if you leave me
but I do do feel that
I too too will miss you much
miss you much...



I can see the first leaf falling
it's all yellow and nice
It's so very cold outside
like the way I'm feeling inside



I'm a big big girl
in a big big world
It's not a big big thing if you leave me
but I do do feel that

I too too will miss you much
miss you much...
Outside it's now raining
and tears are falling from my eyes

why did it have to happen
why did it all have to end



I'm a big big girl
in a big big world
It's not a big big thing if you leave me
but I do do feel that
I too too will miss you much
miss you much...



I have your arms around me ooooh like fire
but when I open my eyes
you're gone...



I'm a big big girl
in a big big world
It's not a big big thing if you leave me
but I do do feel that

I too too will miss you much
miss you much...



I'm a big big girl
in a big big world
It's not a big big thing if you leave me
but I do feel I will miss you much
miss you much...

the video is here

i am uberly LSS-ed by this song...
i think it just describes the current situation i am in now..
and maybe the day today contributed to the lonesomeness...
i nearly cried when i heard the song again...

P.S. happy birthday to the 4th planet in the solar system

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Saturday, May 16, 2009

AKO DIAY SI DARYL...

*EVIL GRIN*
*EVIL LAUGHS*
*BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA*

dahil ako ay may masamang balak....
i finally took the chance of meeting PAUL FOR REAL!
YES!
so here's what happened:
i was uberly pissed last night for paying 75 pesos with only 4 students. so what do you expect?
hapit ko MAGHIKOG!
but because i was already seriously plotting my strategy on how to know PAUL's name, miski kaila
nako sa iyaha..*lahi raman jud na kabalo pud siya sa akong name...*
i started this little conversation with him. eto yun oh:

DARYL: mag log-out...
PAUL: ...*calculation mode*
DARYL: nagmahal na man mo diri diay noh?
PAUL: 75....
DARYL: *looking for her money*
PAUL: dugay naman na siya...mga 2 or 3 ka semana na...
DARYL: aw..mao diay mahal na akong ginabayaran..
DARYL: *smiles*
PAUL: *smiles*
DARYL: awww..ako diay si daryl *sabay abot ng aking kamay para sa pinakahihintay
na shake hands*
PAUL: paul...
PAUL AND DARYL: *shake hands while smiling*
DARYL: cge salamat...
PAUL: bye...*while smiling*
DARYL: bye...

&%^%#%##&*@@@!&*((*&*&*&^%
GINOO KO LORD! TABANG!
at ako ay napa YES - silently. it felt like everything fell into place *CHAR!*
i was wearing my biggest smile the whole time hanggang pag-uwi ko sa bahay...
haaaaaaaay na lang...
NAME LANG KELANGAN KO,PERO MAY BONUS PA NA SHAKE HANDS...

love moves in mysterious ways...INDEED!
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PISSED.

dahil nga naman wala akong ginagawa...
tapos ang sunod kong klase eh 11 pa nman...
okay, so here's the catch...

*&(%@#!%^%*(^%$#%#
i am so pissed off and disappointed to myself tonight because i haven't
done enough to keep all my loyal students intact.
i could feel that nawawala na ang charms ko.
LINTE!
so dahil wla akong ginawa for almost 2 hours
i just waited for tine to call me 'coz i seriously need help
in rarejob...
wala akong student..
FOR REAL..

i am on the verge of crying already
and i think i couldn't sleep tonight
because i have to think of the things that i need to do
to get my students back...
or even keep the new students coming.
i have to think of other ways.
BRO HELP!

REALIZED: HINDI AKO PWEDENG MAGING SALES PERSON...*tsk*tsk*tsk*
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Friday, May 15, 2009

CURIOUS CASE OF DARYL GEORGE ENRIQUEZ

so papa was driving me to work last night when i suddenly thought about the story of benjamin button. kalit-kalit ko usahay kaya pasensya...

anyway, so i just stumbled upon the thought of that story and once again i find it amusing and even wished for it to happen in real life. well, i know and understand that is oh so weird and dramatic and all, pero i guess it is better that way. don't you think?

1. you get old.
2.experience the complexeties of life first.
3. get laid at a very young age(SYEMPRE, DLI MAN YOUNG IMU BODY*evil grin*)
4. finish a degree before you get thirty.
5. die young.
6.forget everything.

o diba? i think it's way better than the normal and traditional way. so, wouldn't it be nice to have my own CURIOUS CASE OF DARYL GEORGE ENRIQUEZ?
but i think my name is longer that expected and it doesn't sound really cool...
so maybe i'll just stick with THE CURIOUS CASE OF A BIPOLAR...
naman! kakaiba yan!

SA MASUYA LANG*BOW*
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FALSE ALARM

so maan and redge were teasing me about this new teacher from my favorite department *whispers*

okay, sure. i liked him at first because aside from the fact that he is funny and he is just like us when he starts to open his mouth,he is also a new face in the faculty and he is the hype of every girl i know...so i decided why not join the club??

but things took one step further when he added me in facebook. I REPEAT: GI ADD KO NIA SA FACEBOOK and we exchanged maybe a few comments. i also saw him here in tagum when i was still doing my rarejob in virtual world. maan also saw him in gmall when i was there. so what? great coincidences, huh?

now, here's the catch. i just realized that i don't like him that much anymore. weird ba?dili man ata. maybe i just got too excited with the idea that i made some profiling about him. it's just sometimes i get too excited about things, i mistook it for liking someone so much.

o..eh di mature na ako SLIGHT ngayon?at marunong na rin akong magdistinguish ng CHAR-CHAR sa KA-EMOHAN..

BUTI NA LANG..BUTI NA LANG...
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BREAK.BROKE.BROKEN

i received my salary last tuesday. i was uberly happy (thanks man for sending).
however, since my father was still broke from his not so HIGH PAYING job, i had to take care of all the groceries and stuff. so, my hopes and dreams of buying a new phone and a new pair of chucks are all gone.

but i wasn't angry or feeling down because of the lost money and all..in fact, i was contented and even feeling ecstatic while arranging stuffs in our refrigerator... (BABAW BA?) well, can you blame me? it's been quite awhile since we had some groceries and i meant real groceries ha! like buying so many things and foods and others...

but don't fret,i bought myself a coke float (HAPPINESS).i even bought Nikho some spaghetti and burgers.


WALA LANG..JUST EXPLAINING MYSELF :)
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